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AN INSPIRATIONAL STORY OF GENTLEMAN MAPLEYs

(i've got my payback -- hahaha..padan muka aku!)

my friend rang me to take a lunch together. regardless hesitance, i agreed so i hoped in to my 'horse' and rode away to a nearby shopping mall. when i reached the 1st floor of the parking lot, there comes dizziness as i saw so many 'horses' were rushing to fit in the parking space. in the meantime i've received so many missed calls from my friend asking me to hurry up.

i spinned around to find the space available, but there was nothing vacant. i saw some 'horses' were parked outside the parking space itself but it rather didn't block any horses to move. i think it was a good idea..so i waited no longer and i  parked it at a clear space near the pillar. M12 tagged at the pillar and i tend to write it down in my hp (i'm absent minded)..it will be easy for me to track it back.

after that i rushed to the food court finding my friend. we had a warm chat, then we took lunch and some pictures too. when we kissed good bye, i heard an annoucement which alarmed me on.

"Diminta pemilik kenderaan bernombor *** **** mengalihkan kenderaan anda kerana menghalang laluan troli,"

aiseh. i didn't care of anything. just rushed out to the parking lot where i put my horse. i tried to find the M12 pillar..there it was! i saw an indian man was pushing a trolley then i gave him a wee smile..a smile of comfort. i did it for showing even though i did the mistake by blocking the trolly route, and they got mad on me, but i was still be cool..ehehe..what the heck..

then after i saw M12, i rushed towards my horse.
"lerrr...akak ke rupanya?!!! (a young security guard flashed me that he was eventually  knew the owner of this horse. he thought the 'horse' is owned by a man'..whatever)

   "sorry..dik," the only things i could swear, in this situation, my heart thumped rapidly, i sweated and i didn't know what reason am i gonna give him.

   "kak...nie tempat troli nak lalu. akak dah hadang laluan orang. diorang hampir2 nak pecahkan cermin tingkap ni tau tak?"

   "maaf dik, akak tak biasa kat sini,"

   "saya tak kisah..dorang kat belakang akak tue..hampir2 nak mengamuk tadi,"

(he said while pointing his finger to some mapleys behind me. i can see their eyes were red and they breathed so fast seemed they were trying to control the wrath within.)

owh, thank god..they didn't hurt me afterall. i was really2 scared. without further ado, i got into my horse's belly and drove away from there to bring along the silly moment i've created. i'm clueless that the place was reserved for the trolley route and storage. i didn't mean to be selfish and let the rest suffer. i just being careless. blame on myself! deep inside, i pay grateful to the god to keep my horse and i save. i was lucky that those mapleys didn't hurt or create chaos as i had troubled them. they just trying to be gentleman. (i know most mapleya were rude when somebody were trying to provoke them)..i can see they were angry. but before a woman like me, they try to be gentleman, smile and just let me go.

i awed them for their good treat on me. if i were a man, i don't know what did they do to both of us (my horse and i)..or because if i were a man, maybe i could lose my control and spent the moment for a little row to stand on my stance for blocking their way. i know, it was my mistake not to consider the others' right..i learn something that i will never do the same in the future. but on the other hand, (even though they were mapleys who do general works) i still pay them respect for being nice to woman..

hehe...when i got home, i tried to see a sheet of paper which has been slit between my wiper and windscreen. i saw a pictures of furniture, so i thought it was just a pamphlete promoting new furnitures. but when i see the paper which was facing me when i drive, i was stunned to find this writing.

"INCONSIDERATE DRIVER"

wakakaka...it was shameful. luckily it was was facing me, if it laid supine, the peoples could easily read it, and presumed the driver was inconsiderate and selfish. waaaa... i don't want to be seen as inconsiderate. the thing is i didn't know the place i parked my horse is reserved for the trolleys. but everthing is over.

when i came out from my horse, i checked its whole body and i didn't surprise to find there was a single scratch on its 'coat'.. another light scratch was found on another side..i knew i got to be scolded for that because i created the problem..poor my loving horse!

and when i brought the paper back i accidently had put in on the dining table and i went to the room without concerning on the paper anymore (i was very tired).. abah later found that paper and he asked me what was happened..as expected, my emak started mumbling around ler...potpetpotpet at me..eheheh..

owh..what a pity day

ALA bucuck2..kesian dia kena calar...

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 SUDAH HABIS LA KiCi

last sunday we chilled out at tmn tasik titiwangsa in the conjuction with visit malaysia year 2007 -- celebrating 50 years of nationhood... we had great great time..i don't wanna elaborate how we enjoy the exitement.

WITH no presence of the eye on malaysia.  this lake garden seems just a plain recreational park 

 i want to tell you the fascinating thing happened when we try looking for the mingguan malaysia newspaper.(as we never missed to buy this newspaper every sunday).many kiosks we met mentioned to us the newspaper has already sold out. it drove us sick..

"aney, mingguan ade tak?"

"itu wutusan habis la kici.."

but in the meantime i smiled with pride seeing this longtime,evergreen piece being the eminent choice of the public. it goes ahead of berita minggu, metro/kosmo ahad and its rivals..although  its daily undergoes the sliding down of readers, but mingguan still be the main thing to be caught in sunday..ehehe

eventually we dropped by at a petrol station. and there we found a copy of mingguan still available..so we grab it.

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 SOME PICTURES

the pictures i have saved didn't appear laaa..how could this happen? i tried to download it through pix8.net and normally it works..ke my pc has a problem? isk..

(yeah, it's done.but sorry, i cannot write longer..i'will provide the pictures with some comments later since now is the office hour. brb)

THE landlord (in my arms) and i..kiutnya adik saya ketika ini. i always wish he could turn to his young age, so i can cuddle and hug him like this...

SPAGHETTI carbonara i ate at shakey's

ROTI bom...aderhh..sedapnya..

EMAK and i give a special pose

POOR lighting..maybe i should've to learn more how to capture the right angle...btw..this is abe's pic.

PICTURES THAT WORTH THOUSAND WORDS

assalamualaikum...

people say a picture worths a thousand words but what if several pictures? it maybe spells lots of colours behind the image itself. it goes beyond just a still picture we can witness through our gross eyes. perception depends on how we see it. so here i brought to you some pictures i've taken during raya haji and some more prior to the celebration...

THE only source of light

this is the pelita..i took this picture while i was relaxing on the second storey of my atok's house (in k.kangsar, perak)..i was really bored and i couldn't find anything to turn me on. so, i godeked my handset and shoot this image. it was a pelita shone in the dark. for your information, this is the only light energy that could find here. apart from that, atok and opah (my grandmother) use a sort of pelita made out of karbaid sounds like that (i don't know how to translate it to english btw)..so by litting up the light using the match, it dimly shines the entire house.

sad? but true...my atok's house don't equipped with electricity and water supply like each of us in this millenium era. serious! if i am courteous enough, i will call TV3 and publish the dark story of my grandparents in bersamamu.. but nevertheless i have to consider to uphold our dignity in the first place. my emak must be regretted if i do so. it will disgrace us. but in fact, it is reality. the life of the two nearly-reach-90's couple is too hard for us to bear. i have tried to ask them to follow us to KL..but they refused. they never seen those as hardship. it's their life. instead of being far away from the land they were born, they were  prefer to live the life like that. it's only those who never underwent such situation will see they suffer.

THE power has gone.

this is the man himself..i call him a tyrant. why? because he auhtorizes absolute power in the house..everybody must listen to him. if not, they will be blamed as rude...during his young ages, he had several times being cruel to my grandmother (whom i love the most)..i don't want to spread the bad things about him. it will degrace me as well.

so, hendak dijadikan cerita, he met an accident on his way back home nearly three years ago. he was on his bicycle while a car hit him at the back. the passeser-by mentioned the man who hit him was kind and offered to take him to the hospital..but this arrogant man refused. he told he can heal it himself. during that time he was able to raise and cycled back home...he stood that he will apply all skills he has, including massaging and traditional medicine to bring him back to normal.

but as mentioned by my grandmother, the accident took its toll few hours later. as a result, he couldn't move his legs as normal. he couldn't raise and found he was unable to sit. since then, my grandmother took the charge of chores and did everything that even a normal man can't believe- she cooks, washes clothes, commutes from the house to shops finding the unlikely things asked by this tyrant. cleans up his butt after he discretes..and keeps her ears thick hearing the tyrant mumbling around, blindly scolding her with no purpose, boasting his migth during the japanese invasion, la joining politics,la..was about to execute, but succeeded to flee from the communist, and he keep repeating those all over again. thank GOD<  my grandmother has minimal hearing (nearly deaf..eheh)..i don't know how had my opah gone through all these alone? if i was her, i'm gonna be mad!

to be worsen, she also have to stride down the hill, to sungai perak hundred meters away and climbs up the cliff to find water for life..believe me, this story is true..i never twisted the the facts! but as a result, she had even been cursed to cheat on him..touching a man's hand and been accused to do such things that impossible to be done by the 80-something! that's nonsense. but who am i to criticize him for this i'm just his grand daughter. i don't want to be rude but deepdown, i try to make the way out for her..(not for him) to the civilized world out there. i want to set her free from the 'jail' created by this tyrant..argghh!..hoping it won't be late for me to do that.....

READY for udhhiyyah!

abah asked me to snap the picture. he didn't dare to go out and come closer to the place where this cow will be sacrificed. hehehe..quite amusing...i never thought a tough guy like him will bear such fear. he told  me he didn't have the heart to see a "comel" animal like that suffers to the death.. so kelakar la..

instead of those who are entitled for the sacrifice, i was the one who witness it. i recorded the video. want to know how the sacrifice has done? chinozie  stories it very detail in his blog.

a few family member who join the 'share' includes makcik, makcho and makteh the whole family. it was rm300 for each share. i hope, if the GOD prolong my life, i'd spend my money to sacrifice, I.A...it purifies the heart of every muslims.

btw, in the special day celebrated by th e muslims, peoples of Iraq have been bestowed by the invader a special being. the whole world knew it. it's not an animal to be sacrificed as usual. it is a human being! he has been known for long as he ruled the country with the so-called dictatorship ruling system...i don't want to mention the name. but sacrificing someone in the name of law while peoples are celebrating the religious big day is such an insult. nobody will agree with that. even though the west is overshadowed by his persistent image, he  was the first man of the country, being able to unite the confRonted tribes which bring hostility inland and he practiced the sunni school.

he maybe guilty upon the death of many peoples. but at the end of his life, he is able to get repented and pronouncing the kalimah of syahadah. at least, he is proven muslim and died in purity. he's gone..but the world will remember him and the name will be etched in history.

Al-fatihah to almarhum saddam hussein abd majid al-tikriti (28/4/1937 --- 30/12/2007)

I demand the irresponsible official who recorded the execution be punished.

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THE landlord (in blue) with abah at the back..sedang melawat kawasan ..ehehe

at only 23, he has some assets. THE LAND! yes, abah had transfered the ownership of the jungle-like land to him. it locates a bit interior with the width of an acre. it's good for him. at least he know what to do with the land. he can apply all he has studied (urban planning) and could simply utilize the experience he has gone through by exploring the country, going abroad and practical training by posessing this asset.

actually, abah inherited this land through tok nie...tok nie, (abah's dad) had died of heart failure in 1992...abah said, when he is healthy and able to walk, he has to make a decision for the future of this land. so, he decided to name my little brother to inherit it. as he is the only son.

apart from that, my brother is also being a landlord for a piece of "tanah kebun" in a remote area in sayong...eheheh...very fruitful one...he has the trust given by the tyrant (my maternal grandfather) to inherit it. before that, the tyrant has been criticized after his wrongly judgment (foolish) to transfer the ownership to my down's syndrome uncle. adaka patut? the only reason he gives, my uncle is a man. yes, la he is man, but he is unable to judge and make sound decision. in fact he is disable.

when he (tyrant) was healthy, never comes to his mind that the land ownership should be rename after he died. he always thinks he's gonna live long. but he was wrong.. the accident put him inferior. in fact, he has to face the fact the death will come at anytime. so, we drove him to the land office dengan mengusungnya menggunakan kerusi malas..kelakar, kan? my brother and abah struggled to put him to my car@ family car...as we reached the land office, he create the problem. he didn't want to pronounce my little brother's name..and the time we spend to balik kampung to settle down those matters was worthless.

they (abah and little brother) did it for the second time. they went to kampung to fix the problem (about the land, lerr..)..eventually, he had agreed to name my little brother as his heir..ehehe...(it seems abah and my brother tried to force him to transfer the ownership? no! we're just enforcing our right..because in the meantime some others -- those whose are biologically related to the tyrant) are trying to take the land! they use the fact that, my atok , tyrant himself, didn't make a new ownership, and he doesn't have someone eligible to inherit the land, ..so the tyrant's nephew are taking advantage lerr...salah diri sendiri jugak,,

so those who read this blog, mind you..while you are healty, make a last will (wasiat), and settle those related to inheritance..before Allah take your health away , you are unable to manage all that and yet, it troubles everyone in your family

THE PERSON WHO ADORNs MY DESKTOP

here he is...now you can see the picture is taken along with his wife...and somebody at the back is watching them..ehehe.,.

i pay the courtesy of this picture to the nst. it depicts the amiable bond between two royal couple. this picture is taken on the spot during the king's coronation. so i give the credit to the photographer who did a good job capturing the sweet incident...

as a multitude, i maybe don't know how do they feel after been installed as the newly-crowned Yang Di Pertuan Agong. are they ready to behold the obligation delegated to them or seeing the status as a platform to be the most superior authority in malaysia ??? (in fact the prime minister bears the most vast power, but it is the YDP Agong who acts to verify the the law)..

i think it's not too late to have a little say about the coronation. as i've been busy finishing my job, i don't have much time to write about my personal stuffs. so, everything i planned to write was abandoned.

as a result, in order to pay my respect to the current YDP Agong, i had saved the picture of their second child, Tengku Muhammad Ismail Sultan Mizan Zainal Abidin, 8 (pemangku sultan terengganu) on my desktop. he also had once being my wallpaper.  since i've found the above picture (Sultan Mizan and his wife), i think it is sweet to make it one.

the coronation has taken place on 13th december and it caught many eyes as Sultan Mizan climb to the throne as the second yougest king ever. he was only 44 and successing his late father as the sultan of terengganu while he was at his 30-s. i still remember her wife hasn't put on the hijab as she does. sultan mizan who wears the glasses as his grandfather, sultan ismail nasiruddin shah is known for his humbleness.

my dad told during his old days, he recalled sultan mizan was seeing hanging out in kuala kangsar buying his things.  he went to an average supermarket. when he get in to the car, he as a young boy sat at the back. his tiny build make his body seemed sunken in the fluffiness of car seat. i imagine how cool he was in the mckk suit with the nerdy-look..

he is at the peoples' heart. i bet those who settled and originated from terengganu will be in the cloud nine after he was announced as the sultan of terengganu. moreover there is no words can describe how jolly they are after the news spread that he's going to replace tuanku syed putra jamalullail (sultan of perlis) as the malaysia's new king.

what made they so? it is none other than the quality he posessed as a leader. he could lend his ears listening on the peoples' welfare,  he used to drop by at the mosques in terengganu. in every friday, he hasn't forget to give alms. in fact he wants to be near at peoples' heart.

i hope, our country will prosper under his rule. it's been 3 years i didn't see the picture of YDP Agong posed abreast with his consort who wears tudung..ehehe..

SOME NOTES FOR THIS WEEK

-i know i can be as good as him. so tried to pick someone who works with us in a company to be my icon.. i can follow in his footsteps and i'll try to achieve the best as he was..and i hope his performance could motivate me..

-unlike my old days in the previous department, i'm now become a yes-boss person. i never tend to complaint or raise arguments with my current boss (as you can see smiling wide in the picture below). i don't want the things happened before affects my career. and yet, it got paid...i become somebody she trusts. she delegates her jobs to me..sending me as her representative..and she had put her believe that i can do the jobs very well..apart from that, i always tries to make her flatter.. when she trusts me, i being motivated and have confidence to express my commitment in career. (honestly)

-being a fasilitator? i thought it must be boring handling the kids around...but as i've have long been admiring the teaching profession, i hope the task she gave me would put me a good help to be a good teacher.

-jom heboh again? aaarggghh..i'll do the same thing and have to pretend myself that i'm not a shy person. i'm going to shout, selling my face attracting the visitors and do all that can convince them buying our products.  it is hard to do that.. you will see my complexion become thick as i'm gonna interact with peoples, expose to them our products...and so on..it will be definitely tough to pretend but as i wish i wanna be a commited employee, i believe, i can produce my best.

-this month, my income raised..but i still don't  satisfied. in fact abg_i had paid me a sum he had to pay, in return of helping him writing an article, my best friend had banked me in some cash she owed from me..i'm also had received a pay cheque for my outstaion allowance. still not enough..i'll try to find out the reason..i'll check what happen to this month budget and try to get it balanced with my expenditure.. hmmm...

-my relationship with abe runs as usual..nothing up and down..somehow i've got a slight boredom...i try to figure out what will happen if this situation continues? i try to be patient that there will be rise and development..so far, in almost 6 months, the rythm goes flat..but i hope his will to further his study can make a difference. i'm not looking solely at the material aspect...all i want is our relationship become stronger and be blessed by our parents.

 THANK YOU, UNCLE!!

uncle yassin, sazzy_f 's halfdad was very kind. i spoke to him on friday to fix my works. then, with zero reason he gave me green light to cooperate. tomorrow (friday) i went to his condo..i thought he and her wife were there. but when i arrived, it was only their maid who served me. with her, there were several inputs..., unimaginably, he gave me more than i needed..

thank you uncle and family!

THE RED KEBAYA (TRK) : I FAVOUR IT TO BE ENTITLED "THE BLUE KITE"

YahoooooOo..my company had banked me in the pay for this month. i didn't  think it is the answer to jolly around. the thing i had planned was to watch DON with abe...i stunned by the simple preview written by abg mop in BDN regarding the storyline. so, i think this movie is good so i have to watch it.

but on that day, i was dissappointed to find that DON won't be aired in any cinemas. so i needed another alternative to watch. i sounded abe to see casino royale but since he have watched it, it won't be thrilled anymore.  as we reached the gsc MV, i made a sudden decision to pick TRK ...the slow promotion didn't bother me. i've seen this movie's trailer, billboard and poster which i thought quite mesmerizing. so, i hope rm22 abe spent for 2 seats were worth it.

i'm not gonna give you the synopsis, since you can find it out from any other websites. or you might come across the comments mentioned in newspaperS..the next you will read is about my critics regarding this movie after spending one hour and 40 minutes in the cinema...i will start with the characters.

  it is a movie stressing on mysterious theme. so i think it is rightful to choose the protagonist who does well in playing with facial expression. ramli hassan a producer and the hero of this movie acts excellently. his eye contact, body language speak louder than the words. i hope he (who used to play theatre) will also be consider to play more 'malaysian-type' movies like this. his involvement in theatre could be the reason the best he has given to be a loner, professional photographer in TRK.  In this movie, he's latif, a person who succeed in his life but live alone. he couldn't trace his ancestors until a mission brought him back to where he was --- bukit bendera pulau pinang...there he found what been lied beneath the surface. what was the story behind a ruin of colonial bungalow...he did travel to find the answers after finding a puzzling image of two boys with a blue kite stalking him everywhere he goes. he met an antic artisan, loong (patrick teoh) who handed in to ramli a picture frame and an old briefcase.  the frame pictured an aging bungalow which he believed had once reached there. (was it a dÉjavu?..latif tried to explore its origin..

        vanidah?...she acted as a dancing girl. or  perempuan joget. the one that latif seen through his extra-sensory perception. vanidah (azizah) was a widow. she had been left behind by her deceased husband who joined communist. she resembled a true malay woman, soft-spoken and lived with a son, called adik...in this movie, azizah could speak english with a deep malay accent. she has been a victim of jealousy from her fellow joget friends..nobody in the club liked her since they were jealous she had what it takes to capture the heart of a british officer..

         bob mercer? he played a colonial-period british officer named johnny. also a part of latif's e.s.p image, he had his life messed up and found his wife was taking control the household. he was struggling to suit his life in the colonized territory..he loved the green atmosphere, but his wife loved otherwise. they did not meet the similarity and it took them apart... after meeting first time with azizah one night, mercer (johnny) fell in love. it was not an unrequitted love since azizah felt the same as well. when his wife left malaya for england, he had utilized the time getting to know azizah and her son. they were high over heels in love...and as a sign of 'freedom' from the 'prison' created by his wife, he set his servants, maniam & wife free. 

          samantha schubert played an image of antagonist ...she's being davinia, a haughty colonial officer's wife who predominant her husband (johnny). she didn't like to be in malaya. she left the land after receiveing a telegram telling that her uncle was sick. due to her absence, her husband seemed to have released from the 'home prison'..after she discovered what was happening when she left the home, her wrath exploded. she couldn't take the facts that her husband was hooking up with a malay woman. it was kinda an insultation. she then planned a fatal plot..what is the key thrust leads to the plot? go watch it until the end, then you are going to find what the plot is?

         another major role is adik, azizah's sole son ..adik is a typical-malay look boy. he is about six years old..he never had a care of a father. when her mother, azizah met johnny, he gained the attention from the british officer.... johnny treated adik his own son, since he had no children...when they chilled out, adik tend to play kite with his (non-malay) best friend..and yet the kite is particularly in blue colour.. having the affection as a father, johnny delegated his skills in photography to adik. they both took several pictures to show adik how 'magical' it is..as time passed, adik developed his enthusiasm in photography util he grew older. watch the whole story until you will find who is adik when it recapped his feature in 2006?

   we were quite exited watching the excellent cinematography and the whole lot...but the thing which doesn't meet our gratification is its plot. the plot has not strenghten very well. there are a few characters which needed to be developed. it comes to an end by just pointing out the relationship between latif and loong (the antic stuffs collector)..such an easy way...  there is also a missing link in the relationship between johnny/azizah...the director should have to think how to bring this two characters forward and stressing on the painful conflict that existed.

          another thing is about the red kebaya itself. i didn't mention it earlier, the red kebaya is a gift johnny gave to azizah. azizah loved it and she tried to fit the kebaya with her figure. when a tragedy went between she and johnny, the red kebaya haven't seen on her. it was discovered by latif some 50 years later. i couldn't find the significant emphasizing on the cloth. from the movie, it never took latif a fond memories. it almost plays no major role that latif feel he is in the state of dejavu..

          all in all, i can see, the blue kite is rather protrudge.it is beneficial and could turn back latif's past memories. he had ever seen the kite was played by the two boys. he had found the images on his laptop screen... it leads him to be sceptical to recall this incident.. and at the end of the movie, the audience had not expected the blue kite is also kept well by the antic collector (patrick teoh)..once they see this, it could raise the question: how did the blue kite have been with the antic collector? how did he find it? i don't think nobody  will say it pays no significance.

so, for those who prefer an artistic film, you can try this one out,...

but those who love thriller, this is not a good movie for you..

THE MERGER??

NSTP and Utusan to merge

Posted on 27 November 2006 by Mack

some facts about our relationship  

- only met her once

-first knew her when we were joining a forum that been devoted to the students of our university.

-my first impression on her: religious,.pious...she loved to follow the way of rasulullah and seeing this, making me impressed. i know, she's gonna read my blog, seeing what do i write about her. she can do that..i just want to let her know, ever since i knew her from that forum, i began to like her... i started to imagine how did she dress? how did she talk? she must be wearing long hijab and talks nice, i guess..hmm..i'd like to meet her one day a be her friend..

-my close friend did know her. they used to organize a gathering among those involved in that forum. i went to a mall with the friend who join that forum and some others. when it begins, i was kinda shy. i decided not to unveil my identity. better for me to go away and find a place for hideout. i was sceptic finding that those who were joining that forum might say i'm ugly, fat and nasty. instead of letting they to know me personally, i chose of secrecy..

-i have found she had treated them to the meals..what a nice person was she!

-my close friend who was bound to those forum members had met her frequently..and i as usual, always look for the reasons for not to reveal myself

-apart from that, after finding "putehseroja" was a nice person, i've disclosed her with our virtual relationship..we chatted through sms and PMs... she cared to give me advises and guidance whenever i need it..i'm still remember when i met a problem concerning i.t, computers, i smsED her to find the solution..i thanked her for that...

-our virtual friendship prolonged even after we have graduated,...we smsED, or sometimes we "met" online.

-on th eve of our graduation, i got a little tiff with my close friend (putehseroja knows her as well)...i told putehseroja what was happening between my close friend and i. i told her from the beginning of our conflicts. i didn't give a dam* for the criticism because i'm willing to be criticised if i found i'm guilty for this break-off...

-i also let her know that even though we've been seperated, but i still put my believe, we will be together as we used to be..i asked and begged her to find my way for --> my close friend..i missed her a lot...and i can't even stop my tears stream down my cheeks everytime i'm sliding through our past memories.. i wanna see we as a close friend as before!!!!!!!

-putehseroja had attempted to reattach the relationship...she gave me my close friend's no...but once she replied "so, mira...lets forget..we can't be as close as we were before..just face the facts i'm someone different and we can't be together anymore.." i cannot believe this at first..until i found my faith back, i did accept our relationship will be no more as we used to be..it's ok, as long as she prononuced her forgiveness for everything i've done, i can take it..

-thank you putehseroja for binding up our relationship...i know, i had failed to convince my close friend we will be together again, but putehseroja has done all she can to rescue the relationship..thank you..so much..

-my relationship with putehseroja continues...as usual, i send her smses, YM messages and PMs...until i received my tenure from the company i'm working with right now..we still be friends..

-one day,  she told me about the prog. organized by dato.dr. hassan hj. ali. it was the SUMMER CAMP!  accidently, i was free and i decided to go along with her. i never thought about the pay in the first place (as i won't be paid due to my delay for registering to be the fasicilitator)..i mentioned to putehseroja i wanted to finalize my assignment.. by following her to the summer camp, i hope it would give some input.

-on the way we packed to the camp site, my mom and dad had voluntarily sent us. i didn't shock to see putehseroja. i knew how did she dress...i knew her build and how did she look like.  i knew almost everything about her physical feature since i tend to peep her during our campus days. she didn't notice me at all..because she never met me..i knew her from my close friend as i mentioned before. everytime i saw her, i just keep peeping without saying hi! how awful was i! however, i believe she's can be a good friend..

-putehseroja was friendly..she talked a lot. ..she didn't even feel arkward the day she met my parents. she confided in all she wanted to say. it was  kinda weird for a person who i meet first time doing such way. but we felt comfortable with her. my parents also liked her..even though it was the first time we see her, we wished there will be a firm ties between us. we're gonna meet again...

-now, it almost 8 months i didn't see putehseroja..i still wanna see her despite all the difficulties...hope she is fine with her current job and enjoy her life. may Allah bless her.                           

* my boss pisses us off. i guess there must be something which went wrong. she is not totally dedicated to her job, unlike my previous boss..she comes late everyday  at after the launch hour. in a week she managed to withdraw her presence mentioning that she is on leave, mc, stomach ache, got fever sort of typical reasons which we have been already expected. reading her message that she will be not around turn us on. we feel happy as no one will interrupt our works. nobody will bother and makes our woRks delayed.

when she is around, she will spend more than an hour chilling out with her 'crony'. she reaches the office after the lunch break, then goes for another break at around 4pm. so, she spends most of her workloads away from her desk, excluding the functions that she prefers to attend instead of sending her own staff to be representative. if possible, she doesn't want be to in the office. she wanna go out, breathing the outside air, spending her leave abroad and bringing  some stuffs from the oversea. 

i like her actually. she gives me a little freedom to express my ideas vis-a-vis my previous head. she also preserves the authenticity of my masterpiece. as the youngest ever "boss" in this career, she wants us to reach such stardom. she wishes us to be in the same limelight as her. but on the other hand, she doesn't dedicated to her career. she abandons her works until it troubles everyone. i really hope she realizes of all these.

*still about her. this week there's a speacial cultural program in an east coast state. our department is directly involved. so, we supposed to have a representative..she sends me to represent her durig the meting with the_umno_wing guys who are responsible to organize that event. then, i took note some points concerning that matter and i submitted to her. i wished i could delegate everything i've noted to her. but she refused opening her ears listen to the things i've discussed with them. she even gave the_guy_who_does_promotion a call asking him what will she do? so it stinked me anyway.

she has sent me as the representative. so how come she still asking the guy, as i have already noted the point of the meeting? is she sick or what? i learnt she also have a 'nice time' loafing with that guy for minum2 in a cafe. i thought she has already discussed about points of the meeting with that guy. so, i expect she knows everything. when i asked her that things, she said, she never discussed it with that guy.. what??!!!! so, she was just wasting time, chatting and at last she pleaded she didn't know...herrrrrhhHHhh...and i just wasting my tie attending that meeting.

* yeah...another thing...still about her.. she didn't decide who (among our dept. staff) who will go to the east coast state? who will represent our dept.? no, she didn't say it. the promotional guys had several times asking me the name..but she still pending the decision. i don't know what was wrong then..

on monday, she decided not to send anyone for the representative. what the heck? it's ok, we take it. but we still curious how come there will be no representative, as we are one of the organizer? is that logical? i don't think it is though...so we did our job as usual and never asked her about the question anymore.

then today, that promotional guy had asking me the same question: --> the name of the representative.. this time, he send the message from our big boss, that no matter what, there must be a representative from our dept. i didn't want to contact her anymore. that pisses me off.

so, cik_toe, had called her and asked her to gave the big boss a call. URGENT!!!  it is a must-decided case. we didn't bother what she was going to say to our big boss. at least we relief. let her talks with the big boss herself. if anything happen, she will answer, because we have done all we can as she requested.

* kak F will be aboarded for performing pilgrimage. (hajj) next week.there will be a special program for her..with solemn heart we asked kak F praying that our boss will change her attitude..will approach the praying mat..it's not only for us, but utmostly for herself..

* cik adik a.k.a mr_geek will be bethrothed on 26th of nov. he mentioned he is preparing for that day. a ring has been bought and everything has yet ready. i hope he is happy as i'm 'happy' hearing this news.

MONEY: I ONLY TRUST MY PARENTS

i've been cheated....by someone i trust.............................

sheeeeeeeeeee.....is ......my best friend since..................

i knew heeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....11 ..yearssssssssss....

agoooooooooooooooooooo!!!........................

arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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OUR MASCOT IS READY TO ROCK!!!

yesterday,i reached office late since i need to claim our mascot's attire back from the laundry...yeah, the mascot smelt nice. it won't be dirty anymore. i bet those who nag with it will never disgusted by our mascot's STINKY smell. it is ready to let its palm shaked with children and those who want to picture with it. it will smile wide, shaking his bod to welcome everybody getting closer to our booth, to ask them buying the magazines etc... (he had always been so). and yet, our mascot will rock on!

actually, it takes only a day to have it dry clean after a request. we don't bother of its head and shoes, since they are too solid to be washed. so, it takes shorter than it shoud be.

unluckily, today i got diarrhea. that being an excuse for not attending the "launching event" in putrajaya. *&^^%$#.. which also witnessed the maiden act of our mascot after it has been released from the laundry..uwwwwaaaa..i miss the moment. i also miss my chance to meet maz (whom i've been first seeing her during my SPA interview in putrajaya)..i believe there will be a next chance for me..

as for my absence, my boss has gone along with guys who do promotion. i hope she can managed to fix my job as it is so easy. i've mentioned her about my pain and she replied my sms. i hope it won't take a big matter.....

RAYA CELEBRATION AT A THEATRE RESTAURANT

also in yesterday...

those who were in the office wore striking clothes for our raya celebration. it is blessful friday that bring me lots of happiness ..seeing NAT wearing a pair of baju kurung impressed me. her eye-catching baju kurung consists of several colours and nobody will say her colourful baju kurung is unpretty...such colours (we call it "pelangi petang") cheer up the day.

she's not all...the ladies are enjoying the day with their baju kurung raya..kak_R, wore liplap (blinking) one, so did kak_A..kak_RAA thought she was all that wearing such kinda body-cliging outfit. it was too tight clinged over her plump body. when i hanged out with her and her clique, she claimed my hip was big. it is not possible my hips' size will be larger when i get married! (she stinked me, but i tried to react cool)

"owh, betoi ka? so, what will i do?"

"haa..apakata mu cuba produk yang akak guna sekarang," something as i expected..i didn't leave her, but just opening my ears to listen to her "promotions" of such-and-such products which didn't attract me at all.

when the time comes, the men were ready to ride on to the mosque performing friday prayer. the ladies got prepared, after fulfilling the zohor prayer,  they applied some extra touch up for the raya celebration. i followed kak_A on my is**** aeroback limited edition (i advise please don't buy this car to those who impressed by its cheap price!!! (alah membeli alah memakai))  to kak_F's house. it is in desa pandan. not really far from our office.

on the way making a three-point-turn to park her light blue waja, kak_A hit something...yes, the divider..what was happened then? her car bumper fell down and the screws scattered...she can't help to buckle it back. all she can do is asking kak_F to find a wire to join the bumper with its socket pending she finds help from the nearest workshop. believe me, it was only a minor hit, and as i can see, there was no scratch on its surface. the carbon-fibre fin, lights were still in good condition. i have no idea why did the minor hit could cause the fragilty and make the bumper fell down. i'm not going to point my finger to kak_A alone. there must be something wrong in its process of making.

                              A sample of kak_A's horse which stinked her that day

even if despaired by the unexpected incident, kak_A looked calm. she asked me to go first and let her fix the problem. so, i r0de my horse until reaching the noted restaurant...

it is located a few meters from zouk, jalan ampang and its stands as a two-storey classic building. so, when i arrved, there are few admins staffs to welcome us (owh, i said "us" because i was accompanied by abg_LR)..he was in a suit of light green baju melayu, with songkok and samping. when we paired, it seemed matching with a set of green baju kurung of mine... 

we strolled down the banquet. after having our own seat, we took the meal. it didn't feel the meals alluring. there were briyani rice, ayam masak masam manis, udang masak lemak, soto, sup, some kueh raya and sort of meals that bring me no appetite to touch. but i being grateful to Allah for offering those meals to me and everybody who were there. despite i have to bear with my hungry tummy, i tend to live the show.

it was very boring show. maybe i was kind of highly expecting the new staffs will sing with great voices, lively songs and performance. i've been waited impatiently how did the perform? but then when the time came, they did it poorly. of all, i think it should be a grand showdown. however, it sucks and i feel i wanna get up to the stage and make the performance livelier..(waakakakak)

the rest was just like usual..the session of exchanging the contact and greeting guests...which consists of v.i.ps, artistes (stinked), p.r.os, and celebrities..those includes azwan ali, ning (with her protege), faizal zainal, lips, nursyella, amy mastura...the only performance which caught my attention is of course that by fazli zainal (malaysia idol 1)..he showed off his best with solid voice for the song harapan..i can't help my eyes sticked on him and the way he controlled the pitch.

owh.apart from that, there was an artiste who also didn't miss the chance to perform...she swayed her a$$ along with her arabic songs.i don't think it is approriate to gather the sight of audience by doing such wicked performance. she also invited an audience who din't shy to unveil his (her?--i have no clue to distiguish his/her gender--or better i call his/her it)  tummy, belly-button and a$$.. moreover, she and that freak were performed before the v.i.ps and a group of orphans. it is no use to please the orphans by inviting them for such celebration but in return we're offering them with disgusting-mannered show like this..

the show of two bunches didn't catch my preference. i walked off and after spent several minutes with those who were outside the banquet, i drove my horse back home..huhuhu..seems that my hours in the banquet didn't pay off. i was just wasting my time..but,  thank you for those who provide us good entertainment, service and meals. special credit to our admin staffs who dressed nice to greet and serve us .. )) thank you..

                                                KAT opis..

ME with my kawan baik. we are no longer together but the memories we created will gonna last forever..(kutinggalkan memori bersamamu...kuundur diri bersama harapan)

 MISIRLOU ????? HAVE YOU HEARD ABOUT IT?>

i'm quite familiar with the song. already heard it in  animation movies like antz, cars (the movie i watched with  abe),  big momma's house, a quentin tarantino's film- pulp fiction and a track in yie combat's album- kalabu malami..it also has been featured in pepsi commercial presenting several famous footies like beckham, roberto carlos, charles puyol, ronaldinho and suchlike. since then i was curious to know about the title of this song and its origin..

this song is also played as the main music during the pre-game of edmonton oilers (a canada's ice hockey team) home games during their 2006 playoff run. dick dale has been known to attempt to sing the chorus when playing misirlou live. The video also won the video music brazil 2006 award for best international video. 

the release of  PUMP IT, a hip hop song by the black eyed peas on the radio, witnessed it became a chart topper.. it features in b.e.p's cd- monkey business as the fourth track. i browse through the net looking for its lyrics and mp3 downloading, as i don't have that cd. after some findings, i learnt the music which being the background for pump it is actually derived from misirlou.

what is misirlou? the title of the background music itself. it is said being composed by dick dale which made it up from a greek folk song. the real writer for this song is unknown. but since it is popular among the greeks, i think it must be written by the greek as well, isn't it?

on the other hand, nicholas roubanis (i suppose he is a greek) was acredited as a writer for the version he wrote for pump it...owkey...so here is the lyrics..

PUMP IT - BLACK EYED PEAS

H hu haaaaaa
Pump it
Hu hu haaaaaa
And pump it (louder) [4x]

Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right

N*ggas wanna hate on us (who)
N*ggas can be envious (who)
And I know why they hatin' on us (why)
Cause that's so fabulous (what)
I'ma be real on us (c'mon)
Nobody got nuttin' on us (no)
Girls be all on us, from London back down to the US (s, s)

We rockin' it (contagious),
monkey business just(outrageous)
Just confess, your girl admits that we the ####

F-R-E-S-H we (fresh)
D-E-F, that's right we def (raw)
We definite B-E-P, we reppin' it
So, turn it up (turn it up) [3x]
C'mon baby, and just

Pump it (louder) [6x]

And sigh, oh oh oh oh
Sigh, oh oh oh oh
Yo, yo

Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right now
This joint is fizzlin'
It's sizzlin'
Right now

(Yo, check this out right here)
Dude wanna hate on us (dude)
Dude need'a ease on up (dude)
Dude wanna act on up
But dude get shut like flavor shut (down)
Chicks say, she ain't down
But chick backstage when we in town (ha)
She like man on drunk (fool)
She wanna hit n' run (errr)
Yeah, that's the speed
That's what we do
That's who we be
B-L-A-C-K -E -Y-E-D-P to the E, then the A to the S
When we play you shake your a$$
Shake it, shake it, shake it girl
Make sure you don't break it, girl
Cause we gonna

Turn it up (turn it up) [3x]
C'mon baby, just
Pump it (louder) [6x]

And sigh, oh oh oh oh
Sigh, oh oh oh oh
Yo, yo
Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right now
This joint is fizzlin'
It's sizzlin'
Right

Damn (dang) [5x]

Wow

Apl. de ap. from Philippines
Live and direct, rocking this scene
Waiting on down for the B-boys
And B-girls waiting, doin' their thing
Pump it, louder come on
Don't stop, and keep it goin'
Do it, lets get it on
Move it!

Come on, baby, do it

La-da-di-dup-dup di da
On the stereo
Let those speakers blow your mind
(Blow my mind, baby)
and let it go, let it go
Here we go
La-da-di-dup-dup de dya(c'mon, we're there)
On the radio
The system is gonna feel so fine
ya ya ya ya uh uh

Pump it (louder) [6x]

And sigh, oh oh oh oh
Sigh, oh oh oh oh
Yo, yo
Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right now
This joint is fizzlin'
It's sizzlin'
Right

do you know him?

                                             ASSOC. Prof. Dr. Ashraf Md. Hashim

this is ustaz ashraf, my lecturer during my last semester's study in the i i u m.. he taught me "fiqh"..i tell you, during the first time i took his subject, i got D..i have the reason and it will definitely burst you a laugh, so i don't want to tell it now..the second time i sit on his paper is the last semester of my study...then u know what? i got B+..because i had already take the facts this malaysian lecturer was teaching me..in fact if the other lecturer taught me, i bet i didn't waste my time repeating the same paper for the 2nd time.. but the thing is i didn't know him! when i see his name for teaching me this subject i thought it's gonna be a foreigner!

ROMANTIC BOND THAT FALLS APART -- TRAGEDI OKTOBER

everybody knows her antics. during hari raya she would spend a week in kelantan celebrating raya with her bf. she was never felt  alienated even though she is originated far away across the south china sea. she could make herself fit in since the family members make her a part of them. and indeed the home is cozy and warm welcoming her presence. her bf's auntie treats her well. so do the mum, dad and those in her bf's family.. all in all, everybody would put the finger crossed seeing them teamed up on the pelamin.

cik_toe is my senior despite we are the same age. she worked a year before me. during her years in usm, she took mass communication and yet she was the same batch with some prominent young journalists who's making the names. those who know her will NEVER find this girl annoying. she is solicitious, fun, loving, easygoing and amiable. she speaks softly and the first time i heard her voice, i thought she was from kelantan. nobody who talks to her will never feel tickled since she is a good joker. she is happy-go-lucky, mouthy and able to make everyone laugh-until-the tears-flow.

a few days before hari raya, as usual we made fun of her. telling that she's going to spend the holiday in kelantan. and she will have a new tudung or kebaya bought by her bf's autie. or maybe she will buy a sarung and pelekat to please her future mum and dad in law.

we made all to tease her. but she didn't react. i suppose she didn't think it was funny enough to smile.

"hey, toe..apasal ni? kau ok ke?"

finally, the story burst out. she confided in to us what was happening between she and her bf. she started the story. on that sunday, 15 oct, she went out with her friends to masjid india. it was a last-gasp shopping before the eve of hari raya. she made a minor mistake by not informing her bf that she wanted to go out... adding to the troublesome, she has left the mobile phone at home by accident.

after going back, she found she has been attacked by mountainous sms from her bf. after a message deleted, there comes few others. she got sicked..sicked and sicked... her bf tried to accuse she had betrayed him. she had cheated on him and lots more. she was down reading those wrong allegations. she couldn't help her tears streaming down her cheeks. it was too much. after 5 years they were together, the bf seemed to have no trust on her..she couldn't take it anymore. (this is what have been told by cik_toe..i'm not exaggregating the facts)

so, they planned to face-to-face. cik_toe spoke out the truth about what went around. she slammed her bf with the facts that the bf had invaded her privacy...she just enjoying her life...hanging out with friends who are all-girls.. she didn't think it was wrong and it is not the right of her bf doing such thing by asking so-and-so and restrict her personal time with her friends. the bf-and-gf relationship doesn't mean that he has an absolute right on her. she told all this until her bf lost the words. after being moved by cik_toe's explanation, he wept. he cried his heart out..hearing this, i felt shocked. it was an unlikely situation for a manly-looking man like the bf to cry like a kid. it was shameful but cik_toe has satisfied. she didn't mean tO make the bf acted like a little boy, but the thing is, she wanted him to learn the mistake he has done. she just wanted a free space for her to hang out. it is not necessary a gf have to hook up with the bf all the time and bf is not rightful to take control on her.. she's gonna feel being overdomineered!!!

i don't have sound idea to second which party. but to me, in the relationship, both parties have to bear with trust. i cannot point my index finger to the bf by claiming he is totally guilty.. i know his background... he is a school teacher. i don't think he thinks quite open to let someone he loves freely mingled with anybody, especially without his permission. even though they have not being bound yet, at least the gf has to mind what role does the bf plays. he has been the protector (since cik_toe lives far away from her family, the family had trusted the bf to take care of her.) but without informing him her whereabouts, it seems to violate his 'authority'...his egoism shaked and he couldn't think wisely to empower cik_toe as such..

at any rate i don't blame my friend, cik_toe. she may has her own reason. she is not a shy and helpless girl who lies herself on a patriarchical man..she is independent! a conservative man should learn how to keep her. her bf had known her for 5 years.. i don't think it is long enough to know her upclose and personal. he has to study her before decided to live his life with her..

but then it was the "tragedi oktober"  for cik_toe and her bf..if the previous hari raya shines with amicable atmosphere, raya this year doesn't meant to be so. but the things which makes me smile is on tuesday, 17 oct. cik_toe  has drafted an m-o-u with her bf. she let some of us to see it..and owh god! i never seen such m-o-u drafted like this. it was totally funny!!!

nevertheless, i'm still hoping their problems fixed and the relationship gone smooth as it used to be.

 WHY ENGLISH ???

some days ago, i have dropped by mnajem's blog...he writes the text in english frequently. but on that day (the day i read that entry), i saw he let the readers know he feels uncomfortable using english..by having the blog written in english may seems the blog author is english-literate. those who write blogs in english might feel superior than those who use their mother-tounge language. (<--i'm not sure i'm writing this representing whose idea, but it definitely not mnajem himself)..writing blog in english also will see the blog is widely-exposed to the international readers..

for your information, if mnajem feel so, he is not alone suffering from this problem. i'm also kinda uncomfortable using english, spoken or written. whenever I HAVE TO present  my idea in english, i always find it is difficult to make those who listen understand. sometimes, if i need to speak out, i have to spend several minutes thinking about what am i going to say. i bet, the listeners will stink. if the beginning i was enthusiastically to speak english, but after some negative reactions, it's going to let me down. the instance?:

let say, i am approaching someone who is an ardent english speaker. i give the introduction then he replies. after several lines, he shows me his enthusiasm on the topic. he talks..talks..talks...without period. then i will find myself difficult to comprehend what is he saying as he talks so fast and making me no chance to interfere. the result? i have no preservatives to add to make the conversation runs perkily. and the most awful, i cannot present my idea very well in english since i have no extended ideas, and i take long to extract the ideas in malay to english..so how come? i will gonna quit the conversation and leave. because? because i don't know how to expand the conversation in english. i wonder if my english-speaking listener will be patient waiting for me until my ideas pop out? i don't think he will, so i make the solution which i think the best for him but the worst for me...it's ok. (you might have been asking, what is his negative reactions?) owh, this can be::

------>> feeling bored..this depicts from his facial expression

------>> he doesn't give support..after finding i'm unable to speak english, he stop speaking that language, assuming i might encounter a problem to make he understood. so, he continue to converse in my mother-tounge language.

forget abut him..as u know, (i've written it in the 2nd page) i have been thrived sitting for the KPLI interview. the result will be released on december (the month i was born..hehehe)..for KPLI, i decided to choose english for primary school. if i succeed the interview, i will have a one-year course runs in the teaching training centre. you need no reason why did i choose to write this blog in english, my dear guests. it is absolutely true, i did it because i'm going to be AN ENGLISH TEACHER !!!! i know it is not wise to put high hope. but i think i'm just attempting some effort in order to make my dream comes true. i know, my dear guests..you come here, you read my blog, without having your words on, without leaving any comments.. your just laughing seeing how my english have written..i know, my grammar scattered, my vocabs is little, but i love doing so since it sharpen my english...i just putting my effort.

i know it is long way to go. the result may not sided at me at all. but at least, i am positive to learn english for the sake of my future..my career.. i want to be an english teacher..if i still remain the same, is it possible my english can be improved? and how could you trust a poor-english person to teach your children?? huh? ha? so, i make this blog to train my english skills. (i never took MUET, but during my years in  i i u m, i have to master reading, writing, listening and speaking skills in english before i can smile holding a degree. yes, you can say without having good english skills, you still can be a university graduate, but being an ex-i i u m, it is our advantage. don't want to argue about it anymore. the thing is, i insist i'm serious learning english.. i know, i cannot train myself to speak english very well since i am surrounded by malay-speaking environment..so, i think writing this blog in english can help. everybody, give me your support.

 JOM HEBOH CARNIVAL - STD. BATU KAWAN, PENANG

so, here is the fixtures throughout this year...for november, we will be in penang (3-5 november)..see you around !!!!! (ehehe...actually i don't like it, i don't like artistes and such..but...huhuh..as i say..it is for the sake of my career..urrkk..)  ..go get our booth..!!

Dates	States	Venue
11 & 12 Feb	Kedah	Taman Tema Darul Aman, Jitra
11 & 12 March	Negeri Sembilan	Nilai 3, Seremban
1 & 2 April	Melaka	MITC, Ayer Keroh
6 & 7 May	Johor Bahru	Dataran JB, Johor Bahru
3 & 4 June	Sarawak	Dataran Kipas, Miri
1 & 2 July	Sabah	Kompleks Sukan Likas, Kota Kinabalu
12 & 13 August	Kuala Lumpur	Stadium Nasional, Kompleks Bukit Jalil
2 & 3 September	Perlis	Stadium Utama, Kangar
4 & 5 November	Penang	Stadium Batu Kawan, Seberang Prai
9 & 10 December	Selangor	Stadium Malawati, Shah Alam