some facts about our relationship  

- only met her once

-first knew her when we were joining a forum that been devoted to the students of our university.

-my first impression on her: religious,.pious...she loved to follow the way of rasulullah and seeing this, making me impressed. i know, she's gonna read my blog, seeing what do i write about her. she can do that..i just want to let her know, ever since i knew her from that forum, i began to like her... i started to imagine how did she dress? how did she talk? she must be wearing long hijab and talks nice, i guess..hmm..i'd like to meet her one day a be her friend..

-my close friend did know her. they used to organize a gathering among those involved in that forum. i went to a mall with the friend who join that forum and some others. when it begins, i was kinda shy. i decided not to unveil my identity. better for me to go away and find a place for hideout. i was sceptic finding that those who were joining that forum might say i'm ugly, fat and nasty. instead of letting they to know me personally, i chose of secrecy..

-i have found she had treated them to the meals..what a nice person was she!

-my close friend who was bound to those forum members had met her frequently..and i as usual, always look for the reasons for not to reveal myself

-apart from that, after finding "putehseroja" was a nice person, i've disclosed her with our virtual relationship..we chatted through sms and PMs... she cared to give me advises and guidance whenever i need it..i'm still remember when i met a problem concerning i.t, computers, i smsED her to find the solution..i thanked her for that...

-our virtual friendship prolonged even after we have graduated,...we smsED, or sometimes we "met" online.

-on th eve of our graduation, i got a little tiff with my close friend (putehseroja knows her as well)...i told putehseroja what was happening between my close friend and i. i told her from the beginning of our conflicts. i didn't give a dam* for the criticism because i'm willing to be criticised if i found i'm guilty for this break-off...

-i also let her know that even though we've been seperated, but i still put my believe, we will be together as we used to be..i asked and begged her to find my way for --> my close friend..i missed her a lot...and i can't even stop my tears stream down my cheeks everytime i'm sliding through our past memories.. i wanna see we as a close friend as before!!!!!!!

-putehseroja had attempted to reattach the relationship...she gave me my close friend's no...but once she replied "so, mira...lets forget..we can't be as close as we were before..just face the facts i'm someone different and we can't be together anymore.." i cannot believe this at first..until i found my faith back, i did accept our relationship will be no more as we used to be..it's ok, as long as she prononuced her forgiveness for everything i've done, i can take it..

-thank you putehseroja for binding up our relationship...i know, i had failed to convince my close friend we will be together again, but putehseroja has done all she can to rescue the relationship..thank you..so much..

-my relationship with putehseroja continues...as usual, i send her smses, YM messages and PMs...until i received my tenure from the company i'm working with right now..we still be friends..

-one day,  she told me about the prog. organized by dato.dr. hassan hj. ali. it was the SUMMER CAMP!  accidently, i was free and i decided to go along with her. i never thought about the pay in the first place (as i won't be paid due to my delay for registering to be the fasicilitator)..i mentioned to putehseroja i wanted to finalize my assignment.. by following her to the summer camp, i hope it would give some input.

-on the way we packed to the camp site, my mom and dad had voluntarily sent us. i didn't shock to see putehseroja. i knew how did she dress...i knew her build and how did she look like.  i knew almost everything about her physical feature since i tend to peep her during our campus days. she didn't notice me at all..because she never met me..i knew her from my close friend as i mentioned before. everytime i saw her, i just keep peeping without saying hi! how awful was i! however, i believe she's can be a good friend..

-putehseroja was friendly..she talked a lot. ..she didn't even feel arkward the day she met my parents. she confided in all she wanted to say. it was  kinda weird for a person who i meet first time doing such way. but we felt comfortable with her. my parents also liked her..even though it was the first time we see her, we wished there will be a firm ties between us. we're gonna meet again...

-now, it almost 8 months i didn't see putehseroja..i still wanna see her despite all the difficulties...hope she is fine with her current job and enjoy her life. may Allah bless her.